LaZy

I am lazy
Sleeping on couch so cozy
Don't touch my comp's wireline
Coz its pumping blood and keeping the lifeline
Oh kiddo that's not a ball
Its my belly which you are kicking in the wall
I watch and I eat Sometime work like a comp geek
But this is nice and cozy
Because I am so lazy

I and She

She used to come late
I tried hard to be awake
I tried harder
I slept sooner
I woke up
She used to sleep
I wanted to talk
I wanted to hug
I went off
I came back
She came early today
I pretended to sleep
She wanted to talk
But I still slept
She wanted to hug
I continued sleeping
She went off
She used to come late
I used to sleep
She is far now
I can't try hard to be awake
I tried to sleep
and never I got.

Inspired by a scene of 'Saving Private Ryan'

She

Silent are her lips, silent is her soul
Grief, love, happiness, she locked them inside
She locked "her" in her.
She stands in crowd as a deaf and dumb
just pasting a "chee" on her face
Making everyone around happy
Missing her past, hating her love and grieving for happiness
In midst of a festival there she stands trying to cope up
I bet she is not alone, not even a bit
There world awaits for her to come
She is yet to smile and laugh aloud
There is a hope and sugar for her,
just she needs to look around.
I know I will see her again
Banging the doors
Dancing to tunes
laughing her heart
Dying to see "her" in "her"

BREATHS....... @ IT-BHU

Red, Yellow, Green and yeah Palaces! This is my learning platform, my happiness, my loneliness, my sadness, my aim, my past, my present, my future, my everything, My LIFE, my life at IT-BHU.
Morning started in a half shared 18x20 room (I had a single room of 20x30 in home) in a locked palace with long lines in washroom. I peeped up in my watch, “Oh! Shit! Its 7.30! Aaj fir ED se bahar! Rush beta!” .Quickly got ready and rushed for cycle, dubbed my roomie and ran for the hall. I parked it up and ran upstairs. “Roll no. 617. Roll no. 617” attendant was calling.“Present sir!” I said gasping for breath.I copied the sheet a.s.a.p. and ran for lunch.
After a torturous series of labs, we ran for sip and bite of life at my, in fact everyone’s favorite LC. Its angel’s house in heaven of IT-BHU. Hail the man who runs it.
“Life in first sem was full of fear, expectations and a thought ‘Wish we could be in IIT and not IT’. Now, it is better that we are in BHU not any other place.” I thought as I had my daily course of samosas and tea.
In night I recollected my whole first year. I came up with an attitude as if I don’t care who rules the world, never feared of ragging, study (I now fear it a lot!), anything. In fact, I was glad that I was never ragged. And yeah trying best to get DR1, and I did that! The enjoyment of Kashiyatra, hard work of Technex and masti of Spardha. I came here as a kid, a first time out from home. I celebrated my 18th birthday here. I became an adult by age and by sense. I learned how mean are people, I learned hoe helpful are some of them. Learned a lot from my learning platform. And I should get a degree of a pharmacist too along with an engineer’s. It was “Sir Sunderlal hospital” my learning platform. No! I didn’t broke my leg, but was taking care of my two best friends. And I just came to know people better. It was a sad but one the most memorable moments of my life.
It was good for my life but it screwed up my acads. Never mind, I got a BC, no offense, branch change from Hammer strikes to 440 volt shock!
After spending two whole months with mom’s scolding and exempt from mess food, I came back to life after 2 months of coma. Life is smooth unless you like someone specially your best friend’s best friend. I am serious about this, don’t try it out! I suffered, I cried but I got a shoulder to cry, my “school enemy”! Yeah its right, “he” gave me a shoulder to cry. I learned a lot from him. All the Poltu I do now. All the ways to get myself happy. He made me happy, of course he does, my joker “Aadi”. And that’s a signal dude, mind it! Pen it down somewhere. I cried, and he made me giggle with tears in my eyes. We shared the best friendship I and he ever had. I began to love him secretly, and yeah I was caught in this robbery. “Life is chill @ IT-BHU”.
Regular, boring and sleepy lectures went on and yeah my papers screwed me up every time they came. But something was there which made me happy. I was a poetess by then. The great great “Samvedna”. Yeah fine, I know you would say “Zyada ho gaya”. But I was, No! I am good.And it took me to a new place ‘National Youth Festival’, I loved it. After all, till end of it I was a poetess, an actress, a script writer and a dancer. It brought “Jayantika Soni” out of me. “Aaj main uppar asmaan neeche, Aaj main aage zamana hai peeche”
The life moves on now with technical activities, masti, loads of work and yeah “him”. It is life of Red, Yellow, Green and Palaces. I had loved it and would be doing so forever. “These are the best days of my life”.

I had a dream

I had a dream yesterday
of walking on the clouds like a fairy
of spreading my hands and flying like a bird
I had a dream yesterday
of walking in rain 100 miles all alone
of weeping in that rain
I had a dream yesterday
of going to the roof
of shouting how much i love him
I had a dream yesterday
of dancing with him
of sleeping on his shoulders
I had a dream yesterday
of being locked up somewhere
of being lonely for years
I had a dream yesterday
of losing my family
of crying in my mom's lap
I had a dream yesterday
of Today
of enjoying every moment of life
of praying to him to thank for everything
of having a dream today of tomorrow
I will have a dream today
of forgetting my yesterday

This poem was developed into a song by my dear friend Avinash and was sung by a talented team of vocalists and musicians at National Youth Festival, 2008 (Ranchi). It bagged us first prize in the competition.